Surviving Anorexia
Recovery is more than surviving
you are

Feel your feet hit the ground and touch the earth.

And remember, you are no failure, no wrong-doer, no judge.

You are a person.

A person whose body deserves acceptance kindness, and thanks.

A person who deserves to wear whatever you like and participate in whatever activities make you feel alive.

A person who deserves to nourish your needs, wants and wishes.

A person who deserves to smile at yourself.

A person who deserves compassion, care, respect and love.

Because no matter what the voices or messages may say.

The scale is no barometer, no measure of any, any of that.

Being recovered is not about simply being able to survive, but being able to feel, think, respond, and react.
For years, I lived a “half-life,” telling myself if I looked “normal” on the outside, and my weight was in the “normal” range, then I was recovered. However, my days were still filled with obsessive food and exercise-related thoughts and tendencies.
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I feel so anxious thinking about eating. I have gained to a BMI of 21 and recently had my period return. I just want my parents to get off my back about the foods that I eat. What can I do to alleviate this anxiety? It is really affecting my life.
Anonymous

First, woohoo, congratulations on what has been a hard and long journey to get back to where you are now. That is a great thing.

I can hear both sides. Your parents are worried and fearful that you might slip back and you are frustrated and anxious to prove that you have achieved health. It’s time to have a really good talk between you or if you feel you can’t get your medical support team to do it. Part of later recovery is learning to own and care for yourself. Get your own foods, be responsible for the amount and what you eat and learn to stay stable and healthy yourself. Your parents don’t have to let go completely, but gradually and it is the best outcome for you too. So you don’t feel suddenly you have it all on yourself. Start with one meal and snack a day that is totally your responsibility. Then when you feel comfortable with that, move on etc. As long as your weight stays stable and you are eating a wide range of foods there is no need for your parents to keep picking at you. Hope this helps and answers your question.

There is nothing beautiful, truthful, friendly or worthwhile about it. Anorexia is destroying and heartless. A disorder without logic.
We are always becoming. It is a journey, not a destination.
I am recovering from anorexia and have started a meal plan to eat daily and exercise to tone the weight on my stomach, make me feel more normal as i use to exercise way before i became ill. I am experiencing some bloating though and wondered whether this was the final physical indicator of recovery apart from weight gain.
Anonymous

You can read my other replies about this. Bloating is normal and routine and isn’t really the final indicator. It depends individually for each person. Some bloat straight away with refeeding, others take a while for bloat to happen. Again the bloating is normal, it isn’t a BAD thing. In the scheme of things, a bit of bloating as opposed to being very sick or dying  - it’s not such a big thing really.

Hi, last month i had a period, this month after gaining weight and eating and my bloods being back to normal i have missed it, i have had some little discharge but no bleeding. Is this normal with the changes to my body? I'm anxious that something is wrong. Please help.
Anonymous

Thre is nothing wrong. It is normal as they body starts to work properly for a period to be missed. Don’t worry. See how you go next month.

She had been running for so long because she wanted to prove something, but there was nothing to prove here after all.
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